You say you really know me
You're not afraid to show me, what is in your eyes
early SHIT bday
Friday, June 26, 2009 / 2:17 AM
god, i have this feeling that this will be a shit bday
dude seriously i dont even think make friends are real in a way
not trying to offend any one here on this blog but
sometimes you guys only think bout yourself and how you feel
theres never a second thought about how i feel
its just crazy
like not attending to my bday because its too expensive
its not even my fault, im not the owner
and i only just found out recently
its not like i want it to be $25
like best friends i dont think im
even good enough for them
maybe im just tooo monstery
I HATE THIS STUPID LIFE OF MINE!!!
friends arent even friends
birthdays arent even real birthdays
birthdays are only once a life but mine
why is it so sad and miserable but not happy!?
what have i even done to deserve all of this huh!?
i book tables so everyone could have a lovely evening
but in the end its RUBBISH!!!
i really do want to take photos with Ethel and all
but so far its all pointless
i hate it they say they'll go
then the next the wont go
then they will
stop confusing me !!!
im not smart or strong enough to handle all of this
i just need someone to talk to
someone i can trust
but so far why isnt anyone here!?
