Eachday i'm turning into something i don't want to be
this thing loses all the things that are really important to it
for example: Friends, lovers etc

this feeling isn't so great
last night i had a really scary/weird nightmare
i dont get it no matter how hard i try to
i dont know who's a good friend and who i can trust

really, after this i prob can't trust anyone anymore
just to difficult for me to trust people
after all these things i've been through

im prob a toy to everyone,
a fun toy that can me ripped,
cut, sliced, torn apart and finally left lonely
i always have these modest thoughts

and its not only annoying people
but its annoying me too
because i'm losing everyone

i know that some of you guys out there
still care for me,
but maybe i just don't know if
its necessary to trust people.


Btw, my 14th birthday
it was alright
i was really happy when
i got to see most of the people turn up
while i dont know what happen to the others
there was 50 chairs which was really funny
cos i dont know ohkay


i love my cousin kaykay
for caring for me and comforting me when i need her
shes pretty much my only close family member


i also love ethel
my lovely boyfriend
thats always there for me to
but after J****** jealousy will start
15.05.09 <3


i dont love anyone else so far
just these 2 people......


bye bye

Eachday i'm turning into something i don't want to be
this thing loses all the things that are really important to it
for example: Friends, lovers etc

this feeling isn't so great
last night i had a really scary/weird nightmare
i dont get it no matter how hard i try to
i dont know who's a good friend and who i can trust

really, after this i prob can't trust anyone anymore
just to difficult for me to trust people
after all these things i've been through

im prob a toy to everyone,
a fun toy that can me ripped,
cut, sliced, torn apart and finally left lonely
i always have these modest thoughts

and its not only annoying people
but its annoying me too
because i'm losing everyone

i know that some of you guys out there
still care for me,
but maybe i just don't know if
its necessary to trust people.


Btw, my 14th birthday
it was alright
i was really happy when
i got to see most of the people turn up
while i dont know what happen to the others
there was 50 chairs which was really funny
cos i dont know ohkay


i love my cousin kaykay
for caring for me and comforting me when i need her
shes pretty much my only close family member


i also love ethel
my lovely boyfriend
thats always there for me to
but after J****** jealousy will start
15.05.09 <3


i dont love anyone else so far
just these 2 people......


bye bye