You say you really know me
You're not afraid to show me, what is in your eyes
sighh
Sunday, August 16, 2009 / 4:53 AM

im sorry that i said i would be there for you and ended up leaving
but there are times where i just cant trust you
neither with anyone/everyone else.
your my bestfriend and so is Mimi
you think that i took her side but really i was on no-ones.
i was only agreeing with something that she said and it is true and also i agree there are times
that things that mimi do can be really wrong
but its not everyones fault.
you think that i bitch about you, but really your wrong
if i did,how does that make me a good bestfriend.
you always keep things to yourself also you always bottle things up.
i want to know something you dont say/tell me anything ; and thats the same with mimi.
when you said that im bitching about you, do you have any idea how
pissed i was?? you shouldnt even be assuming me in the first place especially
when im the one whos trying to pull all of our friendship back together
and now its just pointless....
im still on no-ones side and i never will be
you told me not to talk to you it sounded like you took me for granted!
i put all my effort into sorting things out
but i just make things even worse..
haha! im really am a jinx (i find it really funny because of my stupidity)
i even made you cry! maybe it wasnt only me ; but i didnt mean to
im yelling at you because your always thinking about the negative side of the story
but never the positive. and it also shows that i care alot about you
and alot about our friendship.
you said that i could trust you so, i trusted you and what happens next
you bitchh behind my back..
i left it over to one side because i thought that it's just rumours until i knew the actual
truth that you DO bitch about me but STILL...
i didnt care because i hoped that you wouldnt do it again
but it always seem to happen again and again and again and so on.
but i had enough i cant take it anymore!!
you know what!? like i said if you dont trust me then just tell me
i'd rather know the truth then the lie.
so if you dont want to be my friend its up to you im not forcing you
and no dont think i dont care because i really do
if i didnt i wouldnt block you on msn to stop myself from yelling at you
i give up, i dont know whats gonna happen next but
if you cut yourself or cry ill slap you and its good if it hurts cos ill do it again until you stop.
im close to tears right now cos it sounds like we really arent friends anymore.
i just cant believe that the things that you say is REALLY painful.
its like a knife stabbing me, actually its worse feels like im dying!!
i know your also wordpressing right now, thats the reason why i had to express my feelings on this blog..
once again..... sigh ......