hey guys,
sorry i haven't been updating..
well, if you guys would like to know i am not sooo good.
Ive been having trouble with my social life again.
this is when i need you guys to support me.
i've been doing really strange things and that is not good!

why do people like seeing me cry!?!?
why is my jinx coming back to me!?
it already stopped and now its back ...
I've been being a burden to people and i hate it!
its not fair on things i just want support from everyone.
my heart hurts alot! and so as many people out there.
but my heart it feels like my old times how i get played

why does toad move on so fast?
its always the same.. when the lily pad gets really old and loses interest
it quickly jumps onto another.. the lily pad watches the toad jump on to the new one.
the old lily pad didn't have anymore self-esteem so it decided to go die and drown and give up
on its life. that's my little story.

sorry everyone.
maybe i don't deserve friends.
I'm just tooo selfish.


i would like to say to all these people on the list.

Jbitchh- my lovely sister thank you for being there for me as well. i made you worry about me soooo much that i made you cab it to my house and i paid for you. i even made you sleep over for 2 nights. I'm sorry for making you see me cry in the middle of the night cos of the toad. but i really acknowledge you because your really strong you can always stand up. but for me my legs gave up on me and no I'm not going to stand up anymore i give up. but thank you for also looking after me when i attempted to walk by myself again to the park at night. i love you sis.


Lenni - thank you you were there for me when i was not happy and when i was doing stupid things over msn. you looked after me so much i dragged you into my messed up web. I'm sorry
but, just to let you know ill always be here for you to tall shit. i don't care if you treat me like a dick or what ever but thank you heaps. And yes lennii you are a bitchh to me most of the time when we first spoke to eachother.

Tweety - thank you girlfriend, you to were there for me , i really appreciated that because i made a promise to you in my previous blog that i would be there for you:
if you fall, i would fall with you,
if i can stand back up and you can't, ill use all my strength to pull you back up slowly
so that you can stand back up on your 2 feet. and if theres anything, i would have your back no matter what. but i apologize to you , i pushed you away when you were trying to help me settle my problems. i truly am sorry. but thank you you were trying your best to help me and stop me from doing things as well as the other 2 above. I'm still here for you Tweety.
I'm sorry i haven't been checking up on you like i always did back in those days. but i promise you
that i will do it now and then. you should know that i keep my words and that i don't change it.
to me i really envy you <3 class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_14">Tweety

i also thank everyone else who was there for me.
but I'm too scared to like and trust again.
I'm sorry every time i try to give out my trust
it always get stomped on sooo i cant give out my trust anymore i hope all of you people out there can understand what i am going through.
the only 2 people who still have my trust is Tweety and Jebbie.
i hope you guys wont step on it as well.

I'm sorry every one out there. Don't blame others its all my fault
so if theres anyone to blame it on pleasee do blame it on me.

hey guys,
sorry i haven't been updating..
well, if you guys would like to know i am not sooo good.
Ive been having trouble with my social life again.
this is when i need you guys to support me.
i've been doing really strange things and that is not good!

why do people like seeing me cry!?!?
why is my jinx coming back to me!?
it already stopped and now its back ...
I've been being a burden to people and i hate it!
its not fair on things i just want support from everyone.
my heart hurts alot! and so as many people out there.
but my heart it feels like my old times how i get played

why does toad move on so fast?
its always the same.. when the lily pad gets really old and loses interest
it quickly jumps onto another.. the lily pad watches the toad jump on to the new one.
the old lily pad didn't have anymore self-esteem so it decided to go die and drown and give up
on its life. that's my little story.

sorry everyone.
maybe i don't deserve friends.
I'm just tooo selfish.


i would like to say to all these people on the list.

Jbitchh- my lovely sister thank you for being there for me as well. i made you worry about me soooo much that i made you cab it to my house and i paid for you. i even made you sleep over for 2 nights. I'm sorry for making you see me cry in the middle of the night cos of the toad. but i really acknowledge you because your really strong you can always stand up. but for me my legs gave up on me and no I'm not going to stand up anymore i give up. but thank you for also looking after me when i attempted to walk by myself again to the park at night. i love you sis.


Lenni - thank you you were there for me when i was not happy and when i was doing stupid things over msn. you looked after me so much i dragged you into my messed up web. I'm sorry
but, just to let you know ill always be here for you to tall shit. i don't care if you treat me like a dick or what ever but thank you heaps. And yes lennii you are a bitchh to me most of the time when we first spoke to eachother.

Tweety - thank you girlfriend, you to were there for me , i really appreciated that because i made a promise to you in my previous blog that i would be there for you:
if you fall, i would fall with you,
if i can stand back up and you can't, ill use all my strength to pull you back up slowly
so that you can stand back up on your 2 feet. and if theres anything, i would have your back no matter what. but i apologize to you , i pushed you away when you were trying to help me settle my problems. i truly am sorry. but thank you you were trying your best to help me and stop me from doing things as well as the other 2 above. I'm still here for you Tweety.
I'm sorry i haven't been checking up on you like i always did back in those days. but i promise you
that i will do it now and then. you should know that i keep my words and that i don't change it.
to me i really envy you <3 class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_14">Tweety

i also thank everyone else who was there for me.
but I'm too scared to like and trust again.
I'm sorry every time i try to give out my trust
it always get stomped on sooo i cant give out my trust anymore i hope all of you people out there can understand what i am going through.
the only 2 people who still have my trust is Tweety and Jebbie.
i hope you guys wont step on it as well.

I'm sorry every one out there. Don't blame others its all my fault
so if theres anyone to blame it on pleasee do blame it on me.